GURU

meminjam kate2 salah seorang guru saya dalam salah satu bukunya:

" Menjadi guru super bukan satu impian, tetapi satu kewajipan. Para pendidik wajib menjadi guru yang terbaik dalam perjuangan memandaikan anak bangsa. InsyaAllah...menjadi guru yang disayangi Tuhan dan disukai manusia "[Khuzaimah Sulaiman]

terima kasih ustazah atas semua tunjuk ajar selama di SHAMS........

adik2 kesayangan saya di hari konvokesyen mereka.

SeParuh Aku

"Semua lukamu telah menjadi milikku

Karena separuh aku dirimu"

-noah band-

cik iLHaMs met HeLLo KiTTY

Dedicated to LOL

A shoulder  to cry on --- Tommy Page

Life is full of lots of up and downs,
But the distance feels further,
When it's headed for the ground,
And there's nothing more painful,
Than to let your feeling take,
You down.

It's so hard to know,
The way you feel inside,
When there's many thoughts,
And feeling that you hide,
But you might feel better,
If you let me walk with you,
By your side,

And when you need,
A shoulder to cry on,
When you need,
A friend to rely on,
And when the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone,
Cause i'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be yur friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone cause i'll be there,

All of the times,
When everything is wrong,
And you're feeling like,
There's no use going on,
You can't give it up,
I'll help you work it out,
And carry on,

Side by side,
With you till the end,
I'll always be the one to firmly hold your hand,
No matter what there said or done,
Our love will always continue on,

Everyone needs a shoulder to cry on,
Everyone needs a friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone,
Cause i'll be there,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there,
I'll be your friend to rely on,
When the whole world is gone
You won't be alone,
Cause i'll be there,
You have my shoulder to cry on,
I'll be there
I'll be the one to rely on,
When the whole world is gone,
You won't be alone,
Cause i'll be there,

And when the whole world is gone,
You always have my shoulder to cry on.

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hey LOL lil sis n bro.. always remember what i said... USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN.. and FIGHT FOR UR DREAMS.. i am always there for u..

a story about LOL

It’s a week already.. but still raining inside here. Sometime it is heavily.. and sometime It juz a single drop.. huhuhu… such a long time didn’t came here. Especially once I started my master. I wish to write the journey of my master but somehow I can’t. May be I still adapting this situation.. (what???? U still adapting come on la.. u already in second semester rite now…)

i called them LOL gang.. it come in two meaning. one is Laugh out Loud as they keep laughing or makes others laugh. and the second meaning is Lack of Love... they know why i address them as lack of love. some of them are not my mentees.. but sangat2 memahami lebih dari mentee sendiri.. hahahha.. i hope all of u can get at least a lil love from me sepanjang masa kita bersama.

I felt like the weather really understood me now. Sukarnya menerima hakikat mereka yang mereka telah secara rasminya meninggalkan saya. Cuba untuk berlagak tabah di hadapan mereka.. tapi akhirnya tertewas juga.. Ya Allah.. terima kasih kerana meminjamkan aku nikmat ini walaupun untuk seketika..

The last few years.. I promise to myself no to be so closed to a person like them.. because I worried ‘tentang itu’ berulang kembali. Lukanya hanya Allah yg tahu… I know.. time will heal everything.. but the scar still there.. and the forgiveness will never be given to the respective person unless he/she/they come and see me personally and ask for  that

Because of the promise, I kept myself away from that type of person including my own mentee. But this group of lil sis n bro always came to me even they are not my own mentee. no matter how I sad.. they tried to cherish me in their own way… including didn’t turn up to class n makes me more angry.. hahhaha..

Masih dalam ingatan kali pertama saya jumper mereka.. saya da marah2.. then having them inside my class.. sangat mencabar saya.. kenakalan dan keselambaan (ada ke perkataan nie?) mereka kadang2 menduga hati… penah saya jemur mereka ditengah panas hanya sebab they didn’t make their revision.. bukan sekali saya merajuk dengan attitude mereka.. but they will come back with muke seposen.. penah juga saya menjadi mangsa kelewatan mereka hadir ke kelas. Can u imagine.. hari ada observation hanya 4 org yg turn up and the rest late or x dtg langsung… masa tuh rasa nak lempang sorang2… kalau hari hujan lagik la.. early morning da dpt kol or sms….tentang ape? Biarlah antara kami yg mengetahuinya…

Some words melekat dalam hati mereka dan saya sehingga kini.. USAHA TANGGA KEJAYAAN.. or kuih raya yang bernama sentinel.. ada cerita disebalik setiap perkataan ini.. dan cerita itu mampu untuk membuat saya tersenyum dalam meniti hari2 saya tanpa mereka di sisi…

They having their convocation last week.. as always.. I tried not to turn up during the convo since I know I can’t manage to handle my tears walaupun saya sangat2 mahu melihat mereka di dalam dewan itu dan berkata di dalam hati sendiri..” u r much better than the first time I saw u… and congratulations..” saya sibukkan diri dengan urusan saya and when dr nasir said that we will have the test on the night of their convo.. I felt very comfortable because I don’t need to produce any more reason to them. Tapi Allah Maha Mendengar.. kerana jauh di sudut hati saya tetap mahu bersama mereka di hari yg paling penting dalam hidup mereka… 

Being a part of graduation team.. I felt so lucky… because I can be with them even hanya memandang dari kejauhan. Selesai kerja2 pendaftaran.. I went to the hall.. and lihat mereka telah mula beratur untuk sessi penerimaan diploma. All of u are so beautiful and handsome on the stage… I will miss that moment…. I am proud of all of u..

Hey my lil sis n bro… feez, aju, iqa, each, tqa, yana, iffa, azri, pjg, roy, syuk, dm, rain, mie… thanx for the last few years we went through together… I know I will miss all of u and hope u are here again…Congratulations sayang2 saya semua…. The journey still far away.. walk and face it confidently.. I am here as always to lend u my ears n shoulder to cry…

dedicated to all LOL's parents:

"terima kasih sebab meminjamkan saya anak2 tuan/puan. tahniah di atas kejayaan mereka. u must be proud of them.. mereka anak2 yang baik.. semoga dipermudahkan urusan mereka selepas ini. semoga kejayaan dan kebahagian milik mereka..."

pic mereka? nantilah saya upload.. afta dapat dr am..

NeW PoRTFoLiO..

as i mention before.. starting bulan februari ari tuh..satu lagik portfolio telah bertambah.. selain dari portfolio yang sedia ada... as a mama for the 3 lil kiddos... as a wife for mr azril.. a lecturer for all the lovely kids.. a part-time crafter.... now.. i am adding a new things in my life. being a student...

wow... back to student world... really hectic at the beginning.. (also now).. same as before.. once i am in this portfolio.. my attitude also lebih kurang mcm my student... hehehheh.. marahorang pandai.. tapi aku pun wat jugak perangai yg sama bile bertukar jer portfolio... (tapi kanak2... jgn kamu ikut perangai saya nie.... bukan setiap masa leh menjadi....)

alhamdulillah... people around me were so supportive,... my suami.. my frenz  and also my student (either current or ex).. ringan sket bahu bler mengenangkan semua tuh... but... perjalanan masih jauh. ada lagik abut 2 years to go.... doakan yang terbaik untuk saya sepanjang perjalanan mengejar ilmu ini... da tua2 masuk belajar.. bukan mcm muda dulu... dalam kelas pun 1/4 malaysia.. da rest foreigner...

ya Allah.. permudahkan semua urusanku dalam proses pencarian ilmu ini..................

 

uBuntu.... o iBuntu....

rasanya x ramai yg tahu saya telah menambah 1 lg portfolio dlm kehidupan saya. now i'm back to my study time... being a student... nampaknya proses mngadaptasi portfolio baru nie masih lagi gagal.... sering kali menemui jalan buntu.

namun... saya masih lagi percaya pd ability saya walau sering buntu.. hehehe... ari nie sekali lagi dilanda kebuntuan... assignment.... hehhe....

so.... chaiyok mama